I’m sure this is due at least in part to some sort of self-fulfilling prophecy, as I can identify with and relate to others like me and vice versa, while neuotypicals tend to not tolerate my idiosyncrasies etc. Either way, it sucks being all “I had a social obligation early in the day and it was exhausting but it’s done, I had some time to recharge and I don’t feel like isolating for once” but all I get back is crickets. I don’t blame anyone in the least - everyone’s got their own shit they’re dealing with. It’s just disheartening.
how have you been? any progress? any changes with your friends?
Hey, thanks for the follow up, I appreciate it. Everything is status quo basically. My spouse and I got out of the house a few times this month but that’s pretty much it. We haven’t had company since December I think (house is a disaster area due to the basement still being empty). Our friends are still going through their own things. It’s like we just exist to pay bills and anything outside of that is considered a luxury.
ETA: trying to make friends at group therapy is… challenging. Everyone is there because they’re messed up. Connections are still made sometimes, everything is fine, then they’re just not there anymore.
I can relate to all of that. I’ve been feeling like every single day is a mission for over a year now. Lately, I’ve been getting short waves of life seemingly out of nowhere, but then it’s back to muscling through. And yeah, I was in a therapy group a while ago. I remember getting the feeling that everyone was worried about socializing with each other. We were all a bit mistrusting. There has to be something else, right? This can’t be it.
edit: You’re welcome 🙂