I feel this way to much, its been months since i talked to an intramediate friend. To which i have over analyzed the conversation and feel bad about social ques i may have missed and or messed up. Like saying goodbye and hello are the hardest part of a conversation in my opinion. Like once a conversation has started i can talk for hours about various topics and enjoy the conversation. But saying goodbye is so awkward, they say goodbye thanks for coming. I say you too thanks! To which i feel stupid because it doesnt make sense and i think about it for many weeks. I know odds are they dont care but i do, i really try to be friendly and nice to everbody and i realize that sometimes i come off rude or mean when it was not my intention.

And then if you explain your autistic Then they act like your lobotomized. And i kinda get it sometimes people are lower functioning on the spectrum and im very blessed to be on the higher end. And i truly feel bad for those people especially assholes that treat them like shit.

Like its kinda hard to navigate telling people your autistic without people over applying logic. It seems alot of peope at least around my community. When they hear ‘autistic’ its like instantly see and or act down syndrome. To which i get as there are some people that are unfortunate. But they lump the whole spectrum into lower functioning. Like my best freind from highschool didnt realize i was autistic until i told him after highschool. And his response was “are you sure? You dont seem autistic? To which i explained the autism spectrum and told him i was diagnosed when i was 7.” And its not his fault its just kinda societal stigma, but its somthing i really want to change!!

But how do you fellow tism enjoyers deal with this kinda stuff. I would love to hear tips! And fellow experiences.

Also i dont mean to be rude towards anyone In this post and sorry if i offend you :/.