I never thought about botox to assist with muscle atrophy/shrinkage! It’s not something I’d feel comfortable pursuing (as I can’t even figure out navigating FFS), but I would say my muscle definition is a large contributor to my dysphoria… curse my bodybuilding pursuit to try to feel better about a body that never felt right 😭

Also super interesting to read that they believe laser hair removal is permanent! I love reading that and do follow their reasoning, but it almost sounds too good to be true.

It stimulates my brain, and I enjoy the randomness of it all. It’s like how in nature things can be perfectly imperfect - random and still beautiful - unintentional and still emotion-inducing. Sure, I see the ethical issues with how an AI is trained and how capitalism cares more about profit than people leading to job loss or exploitation; however, those are separate issues in my mind, and I can still find joy in the random output of an AI. I could easily tunnel on the bad parts of AI and what’s happening as the world devours a new technology, but I still see benefits it can bring in the medical research and engineering fields.

This broke me for a few weeks after my last session 😭Dysphoria was already bad that week. Technician and I decided to increase the strength of the laser - previous sessions maybe a pain level of 4, but the last one was like a 7. Face was so swollen and irritated… I didn’t leave my place for over a week until everything calmed down and I was able to trim/shave. I hope your face and skin heals soon and those remaining hairs disappear 🩷

You’ll find that in queer culture, there’s not just top/bottom but a wide spectrum to define or describe preferences; I’m sure this all also applies to the BDSM world as well. There’s a variety of tops and bottoms and preferences like Bambi lesbians who don’t want sexual dynamics beyond cuddling and kissing.

It’s still in Closed Beta, but they’ve been sending out waves of invites, so if you sign up you may get one!

After an incredibly emotional and difficult couple weeks, this week was a relief. I was invited to a girl’s night with pumpkin painting and nostalgic Halloween movies (Nightmare Before Christmas, Hocus Pocus, etc). Just soooo thankful to have some super supportive women in my life 🥹. I’ve started to feel oddly lonely around my normal friend group - queer men who are very supportive and who I love, but idk… there’s just been this growing disconnect inside me lately. The way they talk, try to comfort, connect… I’ve been feeling guilty about it, but I feel worse ignoring my feelings and trying to force myself to be somewhere I don’t want to be. Like, how does the girl at the coffee shop I visit throughout the week know exactly how to comfort me, pick me up, include me, and make me feel seen, but my long-time friends don’t 😭

Oh! I’ve also been playing Infinity Nikki and losing it over how cute and cozy the story, world, and clothes are! Suuuper recommend it!!

The combination might not be causing nausea, but nausea is a potential side effect with Lamotrigine. When I was being treated for Bipolar Disorder, I had to switch mood stabilizers due to random vertigo spells. I hope it’s something else if you’ve been feeling stable (mentally) with your current prescriptions since changing psych medications is a huge pain!

I’m a little over 6 months on hrt and haven’t noticed any appetite changes. I’ve actually been eating far less and more sporadically. I was eating for performance reasons pre-transition, so I’d say I’m eating more normally. How are you receiving/dosing your estrogen? I use patches, but I could see fluctuating hormones from injections/pills affecting appetite.

I hope your appointment goes well! If things don’t click, I suuuper recommend Folx Health. It’s an online doctor service, and you never have to do anything in person outside the blood work. They made the process so easy- one appointment over video chat, and then boom, pharmacy had my hrt the same day. Good luck!!

Last time I had my eye appointment I asked for both prescriptions (since I guess they are different sometimes). Got a 3 month supply of contacts since I only use them when I go out and maybe go out 3 days a week, and some nice prescription glasses online. Now the real thing I’m after… Lasik. I had transitions for a year or two, but got so tired of wearing them when I was out for the day with friends- walk outside, fine, go in a shop…dark. By the time we’re done in the shop they’ve just started to fade, then back outside and it’s too bright… repeat 😵‍💫 I even paid for the ‘quick’ transitions.

The interview process is what is causing me the most anxiety right now. Lost my job at the end of June, and I KNOW I need to be looking harder, but I’m just dreading the whole interview process. I’ve been procrastinating like crazy…I just don’t want to relearn a whole culture of a new team; it’s so mentally draining. 12 years somewhere and the idea that I have to start all over again…😭

Honestly, it’s depressing, but nothing solo anymore. Games were such a big part of my life, but now I can only focus and enjoy them with a friend. It can be the most basic game, but as long as I have a friend I’m locked in. Anytime I try playing a game just for me, it’s like the dopamine just isn’t generated 😭

Same… It’s like 20 minutes of focus and then I need a nap 🤷‍♀️ When I was younger, I’d just inhale energy drinks, but the crashes just kept coming faster and faster.

Depends where you live! There’s weekly/monthly cannabis events where I’m at. I’ve made some great friends at them!

That has been my experience as well! Prepaid for 6 sessions so I set my expectations around that. Two weeks after my first, one morning ~90% of my hair wiped right off during my skincare routine. I was sooo excited! I seem to just have a few small active patches left which I’m hoping the second session helps with. Definitely putting money down for my legs and arms next time I go.

I could be super wrong, but I don’t think people who purchase music think about the value of those songs in that way anymore. Some people buy songs for the physical display of the package, the potentially higher quality playback, to avoid music from disappearing due to copyright or label issues, to support an artist since streaming is like fractions of a penny, for offline listening which isn’t tied to a subscription feature, just for collections sake, for more emotional reasons - physically connecting with a song/album, to justify their recent impulse record player purchase, etc. Sometimes people just want to spend money (retail therapy), so they’ll buy an album (digital or physical), never open it, and just keep streaming.

There’s a social spectrum. There are varying levels of asocial- one being demisocial. Demisocial people want interaction, but normally with a close few people that they have a strong bond with. Put someone who is on the asocial side in a large group and they’ll get overstimulated and overwhelmed. It takes time to figure out your social tolerance and what pushes you over the edge. Some people will encourage asocial people to desensitize themselves by forcing themselves into social situations, but that can be extremely unhealthy for them and lead to burnout. There’s nothing wrong with anyone who doesn’t like huge social settings… Some people just don’t like accommodating others so they make it a you problem. Finding your people can be hard and lonely, but it’s far more fulfilling when you do.

Just a friend Discord server and a private IG account I use exclusively to follow a few fashion subcultures I like which don’t have a presence in the US; best way to get inspiration and find out when there’re new releases… definitely have fallen victim to targeted ads, but that’s how I want my ads- actually relevant.

Been all about this recently. Somehow feeling both under and overstimulated by everything.

They must have changed it! There was the option for a monthly subscription as well as a lifetime purchase.

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