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Cake day: July 12th, 2023

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  • My interest in technology, self-hosting, building websites. My interest in the fediverse, and a non-corporate free internet earn completely blank stares from most men and women I interact with in real life, and those would be people interested in a free and non-corporate society in general. But online? Everybody is on Fartbook or other big platforms and they don’t even have an idea why that might be bad.

    Recently I spent a whole day talking quite coherently with a woman, about all sorts of real life stuff. After hours of talk about all sorts of things I mentioned my interest in tech, and the problems I see with platforms like facebook and their algorithms (I might have gotten a little ranty) and when I see her eyes glazing over I stop myself to give her time to respond, and she goes like: ‘What is your opinion about Trump?’ and proceeds into the darkest most ludicrous qanon stuff. After having had enjoyed talking to her all day about literally everything else, I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, and at same time it was just the same all over again that happened to my mom a few years ago. It’s like again and again I see my darkest fears come true: be a non-tech person over a certain age (maybe even somewhat spectrumy) -> use certain large platforms -> have your harmless interests or quirks taken and twisted into some way-out-there right wing shit.

    So that’s an interest I have most people don’t get: that I’m interested in them not using the internet naively and being gradually brainwashed into madness. I realize I look like a rambling madperson to them when I start talking about it.



  • I was leftie before I was techie. If you don’t know anything around tech and computers you wouldn’t know what to do. Even as a fairly tech-adjacent professional it took me quite a while.

    Then again, I only became a real leftie again after kicking all the corpos out of my computer.

    Tech used to be (and still is) obscured by heavy gatekeeping. We who understand a little more like to joke about those who don’t, and I guess we’ll have to stop that if we really want to unite the left. Don’t ridicule, explain. The person might never have had a chance to learn the concept.





  • A lot of the stories in the comments sound relatable. Pondering about why I was so weird from a very young age, and finding different ways to cope with the weirdness. I also had a mother who didn’t really know how to help, who told me I couldn’t be depressed because I wasn’t suffering any hardship in life.

    Fortunately both parents were also fairly tolerant and gave me a lot of freedom when I was a teenager (guess they were overwhelmed and didn’t know what to do with me). They never forced me to fit in and reacted within reason when I dropped school. So what happened is I found ways to live that are doable for me - I found alternative spaces where my weirdness was accepted, did some fairly reckless shit in my youth but learned good lessons from it as well, and now I live in a good quiet spot, can work remotely and just interact with people when I like.

    An also autistic friend suggested I should look into autism when I was 35 and in a permanent frenzy of anxiety and depression, and most of the symptoms for autistic girls were just spot on and I finally understood my childhood weirdness. I guess I thought about it for quite a few years before coming to terms with it. I was looking into official diagnosis, was on a looong waiting list, and when they finally called me after 3 years I didn’t feel the need anymore. Whatever official support exists for adults in the country I live in is not worth it. I am not even comfortable with terms like ‘ASD’ anymore, because I’m not disordered, I’m different, and don’t want to receive treatment in a system where I am called that.

    As for some of the physical limitations coming with it, I have found adaptations to manage life without having to attach a disability label to myself. One of my special interests, thanks to not-so-great joints tendons and bones hindering my desktop work, are alternative input devices. So far I am happy with my mouseboard v1 where I use my feet for clicking mouse buttons, which allows for a greater range of movements when I sit at my desk. It saves my tendons. I am also lucky (or well set up with a garden) and don’t work more than 3 or 4 hours a day ever, lots of outdoor activity inbetween.

    So now I am happily Neurofunky. And meet a lot of other people like me, with their adaptations, and no need for a ‘Disordered’ label.