When I get that funny feeling I ask myself:
Who, where and when would I rather be? Some celebrity? A pesant from 1600? Some random bird? My grandpa? A hunter gatherer?
This humbles me. For a brief moment, I get to be part of the superorganism we call earth.You won’t have superpowers, but nothing is stopping you from fighting cartoonish villains.
Um the police/fbi are specifically there to stop people from fighting their cartoonishly evil masters. And you aren’t really considered a hero for doing that.
“Man’s search for meaning”
When one focuses on the meaningless, of course there’s no meaning.
Life is… It’s up to us as individuals to find our own meaning.
A primal one throughout history is family. The older I get, the more meaningful I find it to help family/friends, rather than focus on my own issues. It really helps us move beyond our own barriers and mundane concerns.
If I can pass on something of real meaning and value to my nieces and nephews, then I’ll have accomplished something significant. It’s the best one can hope for, and if we were all so fortunate to do the same, the difference it would make for mankind would be immeasurable.
Not a singular great hero, just millions of us doing seemingly small, but significant things.
bro stop
At least you’re cleaning. I can’t even manage that
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Oh I wish I was. I used to keep my apartment really neat but now I haven’t cleaned in almost half a year, place looks like a humanitarian crisis
I guess my baseline idea of existence is chronic pain and immobility, or not existing at all, so I’ve always been really happy to wake up and be able to see and hear and read and dance and talk, and fuck and love and all - I really and truly enjoy being physically embodied, and to get so much of my time without hurting too.
Also, quite honestly, every day I wake up glad to be an adult and not a child and every single day still glad I don’t have to go to school. Did not like being a kid but adulthood has been mostly really good, and has involved an arc from desperately poor to ok with a family so that’s been surprising and happy too.
It’s genuinely nice to hear you’re enjoying your time here, and that your “trajectory” seems to be for the better.
Mine’s been pretty much the opposite. My health started taking a sharp turn for the worse a bit before COVID got going, and I still haven’t come to terms with all of it. Started off with a tumor in a particularly vexing place, which caused personality changes over a couple of years although I didn’t know it at the time, and doctors chalked up my mental and physical symptoms to everything from anxiety to panic attacks to HIV (which I don’t have and really had no chance of having). My up to that point fantastic marriage disintegrated because I turned into an anxious and tired mess, and I was frankly a shit partner. A while after the divorce I lost my job in the company I helped found because the tumor affected my cognitive function too, but doctors kept telling me it’s just anxiety, depression, alcoholism, what the fuck ever.
After a while I did end up getting a correct diagnosis, and when I got radiotherapy it triggered an autoimmune condition that really fucked me up, but that also took more than a year to actually get diagnosed correctly, and at that point there’d already been enough damage that it took 20 years off my life expectancy. Naturally the radiotherapy didn’t do the trick so I also needed surgery, and its complications combined with the autoimmune stuff have left me unable to work and generally so tired that I can barely function. Haven’t had the energy to eg. see my friends all that much, and since I now live alone I can sometimes go for weeks without speaking to another human (I talk to myself a lot…). I’m often in neuropathic and arthritic pain, and I can’t even fucking swallow too well anymore because of nerve damage, so eating and sometimes even drinking is a chore and can lead to coughing fits. Thanks to the autoimmune stuff I occasionally get, well… let’s say acute diarrhea which has led me to shitting my pants a couple of times because I couldn’t get to the toilet in time, and I was at home the second time that happened. So leaving the apartment can be a dicey proposition sometimes for days at a time. I drink way too much nowadays, but it’s either that or having to deal with all this sober, and I don’t have the energy for that, let alone interest.
If I’m being honest, I’m just waiting to die, and hoping it’ll happen sooner rather than later because none of this is curable and will only get worse. My life has lost all meaning, and it’s difficult to enjoy anything anymore due to constant brain fog, pain, and tiredness.
Aww. I am sorry, I hope you can find some joy in being alive and also that you can have a gentle end on your own terms.
Thank you ❤️
I’m really sorry you drew such a short stick in the life lottery. so much of this existence is a crap shoot and anyone who says otherwise is full of shit. I’ve seen some of the best people get some of the worst life events and it’s just not fair. I wish someone could share some of their easier life with you. at any rate I guess you find a way to peace one way or another, whatever that may take.
Thank you, I appreciate the sentiment ❤️
Depression
80% of 4chan
That is sadly when unpolished reality truely hits.
There is no unpolished reality… depressive thoughts are not more real than happy thoughts even though it might be convenient to assume so sometimes.
That’s an opinion, I believe, that a lot of people share.
Both ends of the spectrum are delusional, sure. But the effects of these delusions, in the world around us, differ.
In my own limited experience, the more “rose tinted” end tend to overlook potential problems, if not completely ignore them, more often.
But there are problems. A whole heap of them. That is what I see as unpolished reality. And acknowledging it is important, if we would hope to do better.
No shit?
That might be a symptom of depression, too
Or not enough fiber
Are you okay OP?
Frankly, no. Life’s not going too well right now
People who feel this way might do well to add some adventure into their lives. It doesn’t need to be expensive. Walk or bike somewhere new. Try new foods. Blast some lines off a hooker’s massive fake tits, and blow a load all over her face. You know, the basics of a healthy life.
Blasting rope on a hooker’s tits is diabolical.
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And raccoons exist. A universe that has raccoons in it can’t be completely irredeemable
