Feel like all my favorites fell off pretty hard. Was a big fan of Blizzard from Starcraft and Warcraft 3 which led into World of Warcraft. Still play WoW, but Blizzard as a company lost any love I had after all their shitty doings outside the game.

Bungie is a similar story. Halo was awesome and the Destiny universe used to have a choke hold on me due to the lore alone. But their CEO is a piece of shit and their decisions to force playtime over fun or enjoyable content has seen me distance myself from their stuff to a severe degree.

I grew up with an SNES and used to be a huge Nintendo fan, but again eh. The Switch I found to be bleh. And as a huge Legend of Zelda fan their moving the series into a stamina meter thing turned me off.

Know it sounds like I hate or am down on gaming. I’m really not. Just hyper aware of the behind the scenes BS and has killed a lot of video game hype for me. I still play WoW and enjoy it. I still play a little Destiny 2 and kind of enjoy myself when I do. But my golden age of gaming has passed me by. Everything now is about battle passes, gatcha mechanics, pay shops etc and feels like only Soulslikes deliver a full game. Sadly I’m too crappy to play those lol

No one wants to place the blame on the IDF or Netenyahu it’s always ‘Dems’. Well hey if they get wiped out under Trump I’m sure that’ll be Dems fault too

Oh for sure. I’ll hyper focus on something and become obsessed with it. Then when I pull the trigger on it the fear that I’ve made a poor choice will begin to build. I’m kind of dealing with that with my return to Warhammer 40,000 (40k is the common abbreviation). Sucks because nothing wrong with my choice persay but I also want to do this other stuff instead. Literally debated for about two months before making the choice and still feel like I picked wrong. Oh well -_-

Ah I see. Thanks for the info. Will have to keep it in mind!

Never heard of that. Is it a reader? My issue is that the text and such is just tiny on PDFs. I had the same issue reading e-books for school. It’s just easier and more accessible for me to read the physical medium. But the cost of it keeps me out of reading them. Do have a bunch of PDF comics from Humble Bundle I need to try to read xD

I love comics, and manga, but they’re hard for me to read due to the cost. Digital comic bundles are great but then I run afoul of my issue with reading PDFs (it’s really hard for me to read digital comics/books like borderline impossible for me).

Mostly I was reading Marvel with a little DC. Tried to stick to offbrand stuff in those lines instead of the X-Men, Avengers, or Batman etc.

Up and down. Anxiety, at least one auto immune disorder (likely another one or two since I have like no energy fairly often), no job (see: anxiety), no friends (see: everything else), and when I stop and let the thoughts start up or if something really sets me back I spiral into a depressive hole. All and all it’s okay right now. Everything sucks but I’m making the best of it and most days are more middle ground than anything. Thankfully I live with my mom and she is supportive of me and just wants to help me find happiness (she sees it as repaying a shitty childhood). I try to not abuse her generosity so I cook for her and help her with stuff.

Last year I suffered a lot of social loss and had become extremely isolated due to it. Over the last year I’ve been trying to do more of me and found a lot more good in my life while doing that. I’m still extremely isolated outside of interacting with my mom but it doesn’t bother me like it once did. So now I do the things I want to do when I want to do them and not waste time and/or energy looking for friends, groups, etc (especially when they’ll ditch me later and destroy my life in the process, this has happened with every friend/group my entire 40 years of living).

Basically I’m doing me and it’s been really nice. I’m getting back into Warhammer 40,000 (40k), enjoying my time in World of Warcraft, and all around much happier while doing many of my previous activities like watching anime.

Seeing it again yeah lol

For me a lot of meltdowns feel like spiraling. Unable to communicate how I feel, feeling alone/separated, racing thoughts that run the gamete from anxious to depressing. Typically I want to reach out and connect to someone but I can’t and that makes it worse somehow. It’s scary to deal with especially as a lot of it feels so irrational yet it has a real impact.

Luckily haven’t had it on the top of the foot, but I’ve banged the bottom of my foot on stuff to try to itch it. Deep in the foot itch and unfortunately the stuff I do never helps for very long.

I get this, but in my feet. Just have to rub the bottom of my foot on something and hope for the best. Suuuuucks.

Always over explain. Then apologize for over explaining. Have to give contest to everything so the explanation makes more sense.

No experience with that book, but a lot of literature has autistim coded characters. Lot, well sort of, debate in the Warhammer 40k communities about a fair number of autism coded characters there. I can’t remember who all they’ve said since I avoid a lot of the conversations but if I remember right a fair number of Space Marines, and their ‘traitor’ brethren are ‘autistic’.

As someone who has matched this description, still do but in different ways, forcing your idea of ‘normal’ on them isn’t going to help them. It’s more to make yourself feel better.

Life sucks. It’s not your choice how they cope with the suck. Also that you think they’ll just be able to start going on dates or whatever is laughable to me. But that’s me. I empathize with your roommate in so many ways and fully hope they pack their stuff and leave instead of putting up with your ‘good intentions’.

I used to use speakers, but they kind of crapped out. And limited space for the computer made it harder to have them around so I switched to headphones.

So I don’t use any streaming services beyond my YouTube ‘playlists’ of songs that are all like 10 to 20 years old at this point. Used to use DI.fm, but they switched to a model that required a subscription to listen to the only channel I listened to which was extremely disappointing to me for a time. When it comes to physical media I love CDs and actually buy some occasionally. I know they’re a ‘dying media type’, same with all physical media, and it makes me so sad/mad because I much prefer to have a physical copy of something I enjoy. While I don’t use my CDs much they are my go to way of getting music when I am in my car.